Dear Mr. and Mrs. ***** (Hey guys...)
Well I'm moving out of town and I just wanted to say how thankful I was and am for the impact you've made on my life. It's funny to think about because I didn't realize how much of an influence you guys had on me. As you surely know by now, my family life is basically non-existent. Dad out of the picture and mom busy with work; No one went to each other’s sports events or shows or supported each other in any manner. We pretty much just fought all the time. It was cool to see that you guys supported each other and we're at every basketball game as a family and have family movie nights. It was something that was very odd and unfamiliar to me, but I am learning now how cool of a thing that is. It was awesome that almost every time I was over at your house there was always another extended family member there, whether that was a grandparent, an uncle, an aunt, a whoever. It is really cool to see how important the "Family" was in your life. It's something that was really cool for me to experience in a secondhand way. Again there was almost always someone’s friend over as well. You guys have a very open house and it's a nice feeling and something that I hope I can make my home feel like in my future. Something that I notice all the time that I have walked away with from your family is an enjoyment and a celebration for Holidays. As a kid we never celebrated holidays at all, perhaps money issue, perhaps lack of active parenting and general joy in the household. Regardless, I have noticed that celebrating holidays is way to unite people and to pump little burst of happiness, activity, routine, and excitement on a monthly basis.
You guys we're so profoundly nice to me. Always offering to help with rides places, Letting me know I could ask you guys for anything I needed and insuring me that your house was a place of refuge for me. You guys always gave me little holiday baskets and bags with candy and fun stuff in them. I haven't received gifts from my family in many years so it was super cool and I can't repay you for the emotional uplift that gave me; that there was someone who was thinking about me and went out of their way to get me a gift. Every single time I was at your house you guys always insisted on me eating food and eating this, taking that, "Want a hot dog? We have hot dogs! A Hot Dog? Yes? Yes? A Hot Dog? No? No hot dog? You want a Quesadilla?! We have quesadillas! And Corndogs, Do you want corn dogs? And Goldfish? Do you want Goldfish?!" It was so funny and odd to me. I seriously didn't know how to react. The way things went down at my house was someone making food, eating as much as they could without telling anyone, and then hiding it so they could eat the rest of it later. My family was/is so darn selfish and I noticed it long ago and set out to be the opposite of that I wanted to be as selfless as I could be. Always putting others needs before my own. I never want to be a burden on anyone. That's why it's so tough for me to ask for help from anyone. Anyhow it was truly wonderful and surprising to see the openness, hospitality, and kindness that you guys have. I know that you guys are probably just thinking of all of the bickering that happens in your family and that surely things aren't nearly as perfect as I'm describing. I'm not saying in any way that you guys are perfect, duh, but you guys have definitely effected my life in such a big positive way that I am just now realizing, now that it is something that is no longer a part of my life. I truly miss you guys. I wish I could have still been involved in your guy’s lives. I'm writing you because, well, I'm moving away and unfortunately ***** has made one thing clear, that she no longer wants me in her life in any capacity really. Which is fine, and this is a choice she is totally allowed to make. I wish I knew why. I wish she was willing to at least talk to me and explain what motived her decision, but I guess that is something that I'll have to live without knowing. Anyways, I feel like I never had a real goodbye to you guys and that our relationship, just like the relationship between ***** and I, kind of just stopped randomly. I owe you so much for the positive role you have played on my life whether you knew it or not. Thank You, Infinitely. So in rightful fashion, I made a super duper big candy basket for you all. I wish you guys the best wherever life takes your family.
Thanks Again,
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